super eja

hatred

2012-01-08T20:35:00.000+08:00

argghh why did i hate him so much? this feeling kills me. please be more matured eja. he's just a guy who can't differentiate between good and bad due to culture shock. you should feel sooo kesian at him. not feeling hatred. you should be wiser than him. just behave eja :)

- a reminder to myself

happy 2nd anniversary!

2012-01-02T18:24:00.000+08:00

my blog is now 2 years old :) i'm soo excited for 2012 and hoping for the best thing only to happen in 2012 . i'll keep blogging and channeling every bits of my feelings to this blog. and yeah, one more thing! i'm officially 2 years single :D i'm really proud of myself :') i still don't have any resolutions for this year. still thinking what i should do with my life. the future really scared the shit out of me.

- happy 2012 people :D

what happened in 2011?

2012-01-02T18:07:00.000+08:00

seriously i think i lost some of my 2011 memories. unlike 2010, i can remember almost every little things. so in 2011 :

moved to the apartment
my E75 is dead
won 1st place in senamrobik competition
went to maroon 5 concert
MARA declared that they won't send students to india anymore
watched malaysia vs singapore at stadium bukit jalil
went to mtv worldstage
bought a new phone, xperia x10
got all A's for AS examination
had my heartbroken by a guy who i never even dated
lost a guy bestfriend
went picnic at kuala klawang
ghost hunting at few places

i think that's all. maybe there's some that i didn't fit into the list because i think it is kind of personal and i don't want to share it to the public. hehe

-welcome 2012 :)

29 feb 2012

2011-12-12T06:39:00.000+08:00

i did said that i'll have a new boyfriend on 29 february. but now i realised that i don't need a boyfriend. maybe at that time i was a bit lonely after a few months i broke up with my boyfriend. for me, being single is not bad after all. besides i'm actually loving it. i just hate commitments and i'm still young for this shit. so for girls out there, stop posting depressing status on facebook. just move on with your life. i guarantee that you'll love being single. you just have to try it and think positively :)

- be strong

geram aku

2011-12-12T00:05:00.000+08:00

time SPM belajar maen2.
org sibuk study, die sibuk buat benda len.
bile result kluar, result teruk sgt.
then die ckp, "harap dpt la matrics or upu. teruk sgt result aku."
nasib la melayu kan.
dapat la tawaran matriks dgn universiti.
tapi universiti tak nak sbb course tak best.
masuk matrics maen2 lagi.
die fikir takpe, asl lepas 2.00
pastu end of sem 2, tgok result tak sampai 2.00 pun.
mula la menggelabah kan.
mule la pikir, "abes la aku, mane nak continue study?"
pg search internet cari kolej swasta.
nasib la mak bapak ade duit nak hantar masuk kolej.
pastu terkejut kolej bebas sgt rules.
culture shock dh terus.
pastu maen2 lagi.
pg sane sini enjoy2 perabes duit mak bapak.
pastu sem 1 abes tgok pointer tak seberape mane.
time tu semangat tinggi sket.
"takpe nnt sem 2 aku buat betul2!"
tapi benda same yg jadi setiap sem.
ni la susah.
punye banyak ALLAH bg chance kat die supaye perbaiki diri.
die boleh ignore jek.
haih..

-geram dan sedih pun ade.

cursing

2011-12-06T01:34:00.000+08:00

FUCK!

i didn't know why suddenly i felt that i'm missing terendak so much. how stupid is this? it's not that i can became younger again. shit! i felt like cursing every second. yeah my life was better when i was at terendak. i had so much fun! i didn't have to study so hard to get good results. not like now. i'm struggling half to death just to get an A. i fucking hate this ;(

i need to grow up. life is getting real when i'm older. i just need to find a way how i can be genius and still have so much fun.

- move on eja. don't keep wishing you'll be younger again.

hidup

2011-11-20T18:32:00.001+08:00

dulu mungkin aku buta.
aku fikir lelaki itu yg satu.
sbb dia lain.
dia tidak sempurna.
tapi mampu buat aku bahagia.
ya bahagia.

sekarang,
aku tatap mesej mesej lama.
memikirkan apa yang telah berlaku sebenarnya?
aku tahu jawapannya.
hidup.
ya itu la yang berlaku.

- hehe jiwang sekejap :P

6 things about me that you should know

2011-11-14T16:50:00.000+08:00

1. aku malas mandi. tapi aku mandi jugak la. gila ape tak mandi? sbb tu aku mandi lame gilaa. sbb aku mls. haha

2. aku jarang makan tapi sekali aku makan tak igt dunia. aku mmg skip breakfast, lunch dgn minum petang. tapi bile dinner aku mkn mcm dh setahun tak mkn. then supper pun makan lg. tapi mesti tak kenyang jugak. so nk prevent rase lapar aku tdo.

3. aku tido lame gilaaa. even aku tido pukul 12 tgh mlm pun, aku boleh jd bgun pukul 2ptg esok nyer. ni jd kalau aku takde kelas. klu ade kelas pg lagi la. aku mesti lambat or tak dtg langsung. tapi subuh aku still bangun la :P

4. aku tak makan sayur. bg aku syur tu tak sedap langsung. tapi kadang2 aku makan jek sbb aku malas nak asing sayur tu dr burger, nasi goreng ke. tapi coleslaw aku mkn. haha tak tahu asl tu sedap plak. maybe sbb tak rase sayur kot.

5. aku kaki game. aku plg suke game playstation. game pc aku tak suke sgt. klu aku men game jek, mandi, makan and tdo sume terabai. tapi skang dh lame tak sentuh playstation kat umah sjak buat alevel. takut addicted susah. tak sabar abes alevel. aku nk beli playstation 3!

6. aku layan sume org same. kadang2 sape yg tegur aku kt mane2 aku layan jek. borak2 mcm dh kenal lame. haha! tapi kdg2 ade org salah faham and fikir aku suke kat org tu. tapi sebenarnyer tak sbb klu aku suke org tu, aku nk ckp pun speechless wei. nak pandang pun mcm sgt segan. haha

benda ni selalu orang yang rapat dgn aku jek tahu. so bg yg tak rapat tu jgn terkejut dgn 6 perkara ni. aku manusia biase and aku byk kekurangan. so stop kutuk aku. thanks :)

-you jealous?

like seriously?

2011-11-14T15:59:00.003+08:00

i don't even have feelings for you. i just want you to always be by my side as my best friend. i hope you understand me. just please..

-selalu salah faham. haih :/

kawan

2011-11-14T03:18:00.002+08:00

ape yg aku nk cerita kt post ni sebenarnyer nak cakap yg semua orang deserves ade kawan even teruk mcm mane pun perangai die. aku ade mcm2 jenis kawan and ade jugak yg perangai teruk mcm minum arak, buat seks luar nikah, tak solat langsung, kaki clubbing, mencuri, kaki pukul and sewaktu dengannyer.

walaupun aku tahu perangai diorang teruk mcm tu, aku tak judge dorang. aku tak terus putuskan friendship dgn dorang. ape yg aku tahu psl dorang seiously tak mengubah ape2 langsung yg aku rase kat dorang. aku still rase dorang adelah kawan aku seperti mane yg aku kenal dorang before aku tahu sume perangai2 tak senonoh dorang tu.

kan org kate, kawan2 kite mencerminkan diri kite. tapi sbnarnyer tak jugak. tak semestinyer ape kwn ko buat ko kena buat gak. and klu ko still anggap tu kawan ko, ko sepatutnyer nasihat dorang. contohnyer mcm kawan ko ni kuat minum arak. ko tahu and ko nasihat la die, wei takyah ah minum. ko tahu kalau minum setitik abes tak terime amalam 40 hari. mane tahu time tu die tersentap and terus dpt hidayah and terus taubat.

ko jgn la dh jd bestfren dgn org ni. pastu tbe2 tahu yg die ni kt sekolah lame dulu pernah kene buang sekolah sbb pukul junior sampai lumpuh kaki. ko terus unfriend, jauhkan diri and buat2 mcm tak kenal. ala benda kecik and benda dh lepas kan. bg la chance die berubah. and klu ko tak tahu yg die ni kaki pukul sampai bile2 mst ko still bestfren dgn die kn.

okay post agak panjang. just luahan hati aku. klu sape2 yg tak setuju boleh comment die bawah hehe

- saya sayang kawan saya :D

why?

2011-11-14T02:47:00.000+08:00

okay, let's play a game. i'll tell you a story and you need to answer all the questions.

i have a best friend. let's call him/her A. i knew A for 5 years if i'm not mistaken. i'll always go to any event with A. we had so much fun in all events i guess. or maybe i'm the only one who had fun if A is just faking it. sometimes we fought over small things. but then we will forget about it and start anew. A is a good supporter. A will support me in anything that i do and this give me courage to succeed. whenever i had problem, i'll tell A and A will always be a good listener. i know that A didn't know how to solve all the problem i had but he knew how to make me calm. but things change so sudden. out of nowhere, A is avoiding me. A also block me on facebook. i call A for few times asking if A is mad at me? A will answer, no i wasn't. but A admit that A is avoiding me by not replying my text and not answering my calls because A wants me to move on.

so the questions are:

1. why A did this to me?
2. what i should do?

- please give me an advice to help me going through this

psychological fact

2011-11-07T15:38:00.001+08:00

"when someone appears in your dream, it's because the person misses you."

i saw this fact in tumblr. i didn't know if this is true or just a bullshit because i think it should be the other way around. that someone appears in your dream because you are the one who miss the person.

but actually i'm longing for this fact to be true. you know why? because last night i dream about him. hahaha i'm hoping that he misses me.

- pathetic me

what should i do?

2011-11-05T23:19:00.000+08:00

i don't want to be in a serious relationship. i don't want to get hurt like the last time.

but i just can't stop thinking about him. i'm also dreaming about him. argggh i hate me ;(

- what's wrong with me?

500 days of summer

2011-11-05T02:58:00.000+08:00

a guy once told me that i'm exactly like the girl that played the summer's character in the movie, 500 days of summer. so i asked him what do you mean? then he replied that the way i think and act is same like her. i asked him to be cleared to me as i don't understand a bit of what he's just saying. but instead he asked me to watch the movie by myself. so just now i watched it. and i'm soo disagree with what the guy told me before.

-in case you read this, please change your mind.

kadang2

2011-11-04T16:11:00.000+08:00

kadang-kadang time aku rase bosan or duduk sorang2, aku rase mcm aku nak stop belajar. sbb aku dh tak larat dh belajar. dulu upsr nk 5A. dh dpt pastu pmr nk 8A plak. dh dpt pastu spm nak 10A plak. tapi tak dpt pun 10A hahaha! alhamdulillah la dapat buat alevel. skang nk 4A plak alevel ni. pastu nak lepas interview plak then exam placement pastu baru dpt fly. dh fly igt goyang kaki? kena lepas medic utk dpt doctor plak. pastu kena buat specialist plak. takkan nk jd doctor biase jek kn? bile mase nak enjoy2 plak. nk travel sane sini. nak try everything baru. hmmmm entah la.

tapi buat mase sekarang aku bersyukur untuk semuanya. aku hanye berharap aku dapat lepas fly and jadi doctor. amin :)

- pikir panjang2 meracunkan minda

berubah?

2011-11-04T00:51:00.001+08:00

few days ni aku asyik on9 and stalk org kt fb. and stalk2 baru perasan lelaki melayu ni ramai yg hensem2. so aku pg add. hahahahaha aku dh berubah?

- please approve me yaaa haha :P

seriously

2011-10-30T15:54:00.000+08:00

ape kate takyah mintak couple dgn aku?

dtg rumah aku ckp dgn parents aku.

- want to date me? marry me :)

huh

2011-10-26T14:24:00.000+08:00

they told me to listen to him when he's angry because at that time the truths will come out. yeah i listened to every word. but now i'm not sure should i cry or should i be happy? what should i do?

"ya ALLAH, i'm thankful to you for everything. i don't want you to stop giving me problems but i need some strength to get through all the problem. amin.."

- you should think

blogging

2011-09-23T03:31:00.000+08:00

the reason i made a blog is to talk about anything that i'm feeling. but this few months, i rarely update my blog. you know why? whenever i try to write something, i always had this kind of feeling telling that someone will get hurt by reading this post or someone will know that i'm not fine with everything that happening around me and knows that i'm just faking that i'm happy! did you get what i'm to trying to say just now? duh, never mind.

- some things are better left unspoken

whatever

2011-09-23T03:24:00.001+08:00

girl: i miss you so much. it's been months since the last time we met.

boy: yeah i miss you too. wait until i finish my studies here. after that we can meet everyday.

girl: really? wow i've been wanting this! you promise?

boy: yeah i promise.

take note, THIS IS NOT TRUE. the boy is a big liar.

- yaa, i'm emo right now

pendapat aku

2011-09-07T16:23:00.000+08:00

sekarang kan agak bising psl budak2 remaja di malaysia kt luar negara ni nak kawen awal. semua ni psl diri sendiri kusut2 pikir klu duk overseas nnt terpengaruh dgn budaya luar la (padahal duk kat mesir), tak boleh hidup single time kat oversea nnt (padahal kwn ramai ade), takut bf kena simbah asid sbb berebut pondan (okay ni tipu jek haha).

bg pendapat aku la, buat ape nk sakit2 otak pikir psl nak kawen awl? belajar tak abes lg. aku pun kdg2 ade gak pikir umur 20 ni nak kawen trus. hahaha! tapi bile pikir pki otak kan, gila ke ape? korang sanggup ke nak tanggung responsibilities, ade commitment sume?

kan lagi best jd single. benda plg susah ko nak pikir pun psl study. tunggu la perangai tu matang sikit, duit pun usaha sendiri, belajar pun dh abes. then nak kwen, kawen la! mst ade yg tak setuju dgn ape yg aku ckp ni kan? tapi tak kesah la. sume org pikir laen2.

- sorry to those yg terase

kereta malaysia

2011-09-03T23:13:00.000+08:00

di waktu malam

aku tgh drive di highway

agak laju aku drive

kerana kakiku tekan minyak agak kuat.

tiba-tiba...

kelihatan sebuah kereta tak dikenali di belakang.

sgt2 laju sambil memberi signal

yg die nk potong

aku tgok meter

aku dh drive 150km/h tapi die nk potong gak

dlm hati, "gilaaa ah kereta blakang ni. bape la speed die."

aku ketepi bg laluan

sambil lihat ketepi nk tgok kereta ape tu

audi ke, merc ke, bmw ke

rupe2 nyer gen2 jek

conclusion kereta malaysia mmg hebat!

- belilah gen2 haha

sumpah

2011-08-27T21:43:00.000+08:00

sila tgok si adam. aku berkali kali jatuh cinta.

- give a little more

kate hati

2011-08-27T20:54:00.001+08:00

once upon a time, i fell in love with a wrong person. and no, i don't regret for the time i spent with him. but what i regret is the time i take to realize that he's the wrong person.

the scariest part in being loved by someone is the uncertainty that they may stop anytime. so deal with it! and find someone who will love you forever.

- just move on la guys

awww sweet

2011-08-26T11:58:00.001+08:00

i want..

to be able to hold hands

to be able to cuddle

to be able to kiss

to be able to take silly pictures

to be able to go places together

to be able to match

tapi kawen dulu HAHAHA

-credit to tumblr

correction

2011-08-26T11:24:00.001+08:00

phone aku yg aku baru pakai tak sampai satu hari then rosak tu BUKAN samsung ace tau! sbb ramai tanye aku phone yg rosak tu samsung ace ke? yg rosak hari tu samsung galaxy s1. sory sbb buat sume pengguna samsung ace and yg baru nak beli samsung ace risau. hehe

and ramai mcm pelik, asl satu hari jek dh rosak? ko biar btol eja? ko buat ape dgn phone tu? haha aku ni takde la ganas pun sayang oi. phone tu mmg dh rosak dr manufacture lg. phone tu klu play music tak keluar sound. and bile org call, kite tak dgr suare org and org yg call tu tak dgr jugak suare kite.

and bg sape2 yg terfikir nak beli samsung galaxy s1, takyah beli ah. baek beli xperia x10i. lg best :DD and tak silap aku harga lebih kurang jek kot.

- nk sng beli nokia rm80 tu. lagi diehard haha

hey

2011-08-26T11:06:00.000+08:00

yeah dh lame tak online. rinduuu! aku just nak cakap yang aku baru start cuti smalam! patutnyer ptg ni baru start cuti. tapi aku dh tak tahan duduk kat KTT. kepala rase kusut gilaaa. so balik jek awal and ponteng kelas. haha tapi tak cakap ape2 pun kat ibu dgn ayah sbb dorang tak tanye ape2 pun.

lepas cuti raye ni mcm biase aku nak tanam azam. aku nk study bersungguh2. and kena improve maths aku. arggghhh tension! tak suke maths sbb susah! skarang tgh cari tusyen maths a-level. nak kena tererkan maths ni. kene jadi more serious lpas ni.

ish tak sabar nk fly! kawan2, akak senior sume dh nk dkat fly. cepatlah tibe mase aku.

- please la boleh pg australia.

result AS

2011-08-11T14:11:00.000+08:00

11 August 2010,

hari ni result keluar! syukur alhamdulillah aku dapat sume A. tapi markah setiap subject tak dpt lg. harap sgt dapat top in the world. sbb time form 5 kan aku tak dpt dtg hari graduasi sbb kena gantung sekolah time tu. so klu aku dapat top in the world kire boleh la banggekan ibu dgn ayah. thanks to ayah, ibu, lecturers and friends for the support :DD

- jom aku nak belanjaaa!

phone baru

2011-08-11T13:57:00.001+08:00

aku beli phone baru dh. harap tak rosak lagi ;( ayah yg pilih phone sbb aku kt kolej. so phone baru aku ni..

xperia x10, jgn buat hal eh?

- okay download gameee :DD

okay fine

2011-08-07T19:02:00.001+08:00

phone baru dh rosak. haha! ye saye ade jari yg boleh destroy segala benda yg berteknologi tinggi.

- next week phone baru ;(

phone

2011-08-06T22:38:00.000+08:00

Di rumah....

ayah: nak repair phone or nk beli yg baru?
me: nak repair.
ayah: ha dh tu. bile nk pg repair? ckp jek tapi tak pg pun.
ibu: pg la drive kedai depan sane.
me: ha ye la. (siap2 nak pergi)
angah: eh nk pg mne? nak pg klinik.
ayah: kalau cmtu ayah pg la sekali.

Di kedai....

amoi: ni ape prob?
ayah: keypad phone tak function. kalau nak repair brape harge?
amoi: oh okay kejap eh. tanye bos.
ayah: okay.
amoi: harge rm150 tapi ribbon takde stock. kene tunggu few days.
ayah: bape lame?
amoi: kene order dulu. so dlm isnin or selasa ke?
ayah: eja, so cmne ni?
me: beli phone baru la.
ayah: okay la kalau cmtu kite pg kdai kat terminal 1.

Terminal 1.....

ayah: haa nak mane satu?
angah: phone ni best. tu pun best.
ayah: phone ni nak tak?
me: smart jugak.
ayah: ha okay la phone ni.

then dapat la phone baru! thanks ayah! i love youuuu :DD

and ni la phone baru aku. tak tahu la nak ckp best or tak. tapi ayah yg pilihkan. mesti lah best!

- nak download gme byk2!

tak tahan

2011-08-05T23:38:00.001+08:00

cube tengok. sexy gilaaa nak mati kan? sumpah aku mintak dtg malaysia lagi!

- ohmygod

addict

2011-08-05T23:19:00.000+08:00

argghhh lagu ni tak boleh hilang dari kepala otak!

- hey boy i love you

problem

2011-08-05T23:15:00.000+08:00

phone aku rosak. keypad die tak berfungsi. to those yg hantar text, sorry tak reply. aku pun tak dapat bace ape korang hantar and aku tak tahu sape yg hantar. now dh byk gila msg. argghh terseksa tak dapat bace! so anything just call me okay? miss you guys so much :') tak tahu la bile nk fix phone ni. rajin2 la on9 skype sbb aku slalu on9. takde ah slalu pun sebenarnyer. weekend la. add aku kat skype: supereja. hope tak lost contact dgn kawan2 :)

- rinduuuuu

bersukan

2011-07-31T16:45:00.000+08:00

few weeks ni aku ade problem. kerja nak berjogging, berskipping, berbadminton and berfutsal. then tak study. haha! dulu aku tak paham asl boys lagi suke bersukan, then malam2 rase penat pastu tak study. dorang tak risau ke exam? okay now i know perasaan dorang. sekarang ni klu aku tak dapat turun bersukan, aku akan rase mcm, "oh damn!" klu petang jek bersukan okay la. ni sampai malam pun aku bantai pg maen badminton. seronok! then esok pagi masuk kelas blank. klu ade kelas pagi mesti bangun lambat. kene kunci luar kelas. oh disaster! please please, cmne nak fix ni? exam lagi 2 weeks jek. aku tak study ape2 pun LANGSUNG! tension grrrrrrr!

- help me pleaseeeee..

pernah tak?

2011-07-31T16:17:00.000+08:00

pernah tak korang tgok gambar someone sampai rase mcm tak boleh bernafas? rase mcm hati ni dh retak seribu? rase mcm kecewa gilaaa? pernah tak? aku pernah. rase mcm tak semangat nk happy2. rase sgt sgt kecewa. tapi takpe, sayang tak semestinye memiliki kan? as long as you are happy, i'm happy :)

semoga berbahagia :')

- noh, bile nk buat gig lagi? i nak dtg :((

bola oi!

2011-07-30T19:47:00.001+08:00

even msia kalah, aku masih bangge sbb hero mesti kalah dulu baru menang. ala mcm dlm movie slalu kuar cinema kan cmtu. same gak la situation bola mas vs sg ni. haha! one day msia akan msuk worldcup gak. i do believe in malaysia.

- lepas ni klu fly nak tgok bola kat overseas plak. amin :)

first time overnite with the dudes of KTT

2011-07-30T19:36:00.000+08:00

putrajaya ;)

nilai ;)

jeram toi ;)

they are the ONLY KTTians yg awesome. haha!

-pics sume curi dari husna

mtv world stage 2011

2011-07-30T19:23:00.000+08:00

i-city, shah alam

24th July 2011

gan, imran, atix, aisar, syaz, kd

so enjoy the pictures that i steal from imran hee

i went there with kd and imran. it was an enjoyable journey. we almost die a few times because of the fucking kancil. lost in the middle of nowhere but thanks to miss gps for helping us. looking forward for next year. LOVE YOU GUYS :)

-i'm too young to feel old

magical

2011-07-30T19:04:00.002+08:00

when someone leaves you, don't hope and wait for the person to come back.

feel good about yourself and say,

"thanks for giving me the chance to find someone better than you."

- one day you'll be stronger babe.

mtv!

2011-07-20T12:30:00.000+08:00

mtv world stage tickets for SALE. rm50 each. if interested just contact 0173991226 :)

beli laaaa. neon tress, 30 seconds to mars, beast and pop shuvit will perform. rugi tak dtg wooo!

- ticket murah

19

2011-07-17T16:28:00.000+08:00

yeaaa dh 19! harap aku akan jadi a better eja. thanks untuk semua orang yg wish. really appreciate it :D sory kalau ade sape2 yang terase sbb aku tak call even aku dapat free call. actually aku tak call org sgt. aku call tak sampai 5 org and borak pun less than 30 minutes.

19 and still SUPER

- excited

16 july 2011

2011-07-17T16:06:00.000+08:00

i woke up at 10.30pm. then get ready to fetch adek at tuition. after fetching adek, i drove straight to kolej pembantu perubatan as i already promise to go hang out with adri. i totally forgot about ami at that time. they were in the same college. so i called ami and tell him to get ready. and guess what, it takes him more than 30minutes to get ready. but i patiently wait for him. so at 12.45pm, we went to jusco seremban 2.

arrived at jusco around 1pm. then straight to sushi king for take away. suddenly, kudeng called and told me he's waiting for us at popular bookstore. so we met kudeng. i was so shocked seeing him because he is super thin. only a bit fatter than the skeleton model inside the lab. just imagine it!

after a very short conversation with kudeng, i entered popular. i just knew that saturday is a no plastic bag day. i think they should change it to everyday is a no plastic bag day. then we went to vincci and i bought a pair of shoes. i always wanted to wear heels. but if i did, i'll look awkwardly tall. hmmm pity me.

around 2pm, ibu called and asked me to go home so that adek can get ready to go to her maths class. so i drove back home. after adek changed to proper clothes and we had zuhur prayer, we went out again and drop adek at her school on the way. we had a so called lunch at secret recipe and went to terminal 1. we did some window shopping there. it was fun having ami and adri by my side. we had a good laugh and we enjoyed our time.

- happy :)

conversation

2011-06-25T16:37:00.000+08:00

place: in the car with ibu

ibu: ibu suke pg km plaza sbb kain die murah2
me: a'ah saloon die jugak
ibu: tu laa. maybe sbb sewa tempat murah.
me: menyesal pg curlkan rmbut kat terminal 1. mahal gilaa!
ibu: klu kat km plaza tu murah ke?
me: a'ah murahh gilaa
ibu: lpas ni tak curlkan rambut lg ke?
me: nak2! buat loose curl dr telinga sampai ke bawah. ni hujung rambut jek.
ibu: hmm takyah la. belajar dulu. takyah risau psl rambut2 ni.
me: ha okay.

i think it's funny because ibu is very worried that i'll not study and reti nak melawa jek. haha i will study sampai la jd doctor. don't worry la ibu :) i love you..

and i want my hair to be just like this:

- dear hair, please grow!

tak suke!

2011-06-25T13:24:00.000+08:00

ade beberape perkare annoying kalau aku pg ke kedai2 kat mall. and kalau ade owner kedai or org yg kerja kat yg bace post aku ni please la take note okay?

1. ikut belakang customer sentiase

aku tak suke sgt ni. pikir aku nak mencuri ke ape. annoying gile tahu?

2. kemas2sume benda yg kite pgg

kdg2 klu kite tgok baju display, kite akan pgg. then pekerja die akan terus kemas2 right after aku pgg. klu ye pun tunggu la aku bla dulu.

3. promote benda laen

ade skali tu aku cari shampoo loreal. then die pergi bawak aku pg tempat shampoo len and promote shampoo tu. bengang betul la! pekak ke ape?

4. pakse beli

kdg2 ade pekerja yg pakse2 beli padahal aku nak tgok jek.

ade banyak lagi benda yg annoying but aku boleh bertolak ansur lagi. this top 4 mmg aku bengang gilaaa! tapi selalunya kedai yg jenama tak pnah dgr buat perangai mcm ni. klu kedai yg jenama popular selalu dorang relax jek.

- please jgn la jd annoying

arggghhh my hair

2011-06-23T02:52:00.000+08:00

aku tak paham kenapa aku baru 19 tahun tapi dh ade uban?

aku tak paham kenapa rambut aku ni tak reti panjang2?

- bengang haha

tahukah anda..

2011-06-22T02:19:00.000+08:00

dlm ramai2 kawan, mesti ade sorang yg suke condemn kite.

ape2 jek kite post kat facebook/blog/tumblr tu mesti paling tak best la

ape2 jek kite buat yg org puji mesti die tak boleh terima and kate die boleh buat lagi bagus

ape2 jek kite cakap mesti salah la

kawan mcm ni mmg annoying

kite senyum jek bila dgn die

tapi dlm hati sape jek yg tahu kan?

sedarlah wahai kawan...

-please la go to hell.

seriously?

2011-06-22T02:13:00.000+08:00

he constantly hurt my feelings

he will never change

still he is all i ever wanted

but now..

what happened?

oh i'm so scared

i need time.

- it is confusing

i'm back

2011-06-21T23:59:00.000+08:00

yeah i'm back blogging :) at last i have the mood to blog but holiday is almost over. urggh! actually, i can't wait to start studying. crazy rite? haha maybe because i'm bored doing nothing at home.

so this holiday, i managed to meet tiqa, dinie and atix. it was fun meeting them. i've done attachment at hospital seremban with aeisyah and aida. i met a very handsome doctor there :D

there's nothing much to tell about my holiday. so bye readers!

- i want a longgg holiday!

my new boyfriend

2011-06-09T18:52:00.000+08:00

OMG! OMG! OMG! OMG!

-addicted

finally holiday!

2011-06-09T18:47:00.000+08:00

yeah selepas sebulan berhempas pulas dgn exam, akhirnya aku dh boleh relax. tapi bile igt psl exam rase down. mst pikir "eh ape la aku mengarut dalam kertas exam tu." , "eh camne la result aku?". so skarang tak nak pikir dh psl tu. we look on the bright side. aku harap dapat la straight A's untuk AS ni. amin :)

byk sgt benda aku nak buat holiday ni. tapi as usual mst tak dapat completekan ape aku nak. so aku akan buat yg terbaik untuk isi mase cuti yg ade. sape2 yg free, boleh la text aku. nak ajak dating ke, dtg merisik ke, nak lepak mamak ke, aku akan try utk pergi okay?

- excited holiday :D

is it good or bad?

2011-06-09T18:39:00.000+08:00

last month aku dapat tahu yg MARA dh tak hantar pergi india. at first rase sgt down sbb aku nak sgt pg india. nk sgt tahu! bukan psl india tu country lg best dlm dunia or bukan sbb india tu byk sgt laki hensem. tapi, the best doctor come from india. dorang mmg terer ah dlm medic.

tapi nak buat mcm mane kan. dh tak hantar. so die bg 3 country lain. czech, australia and indonesia. tak tahu nak rase happy ke tak. time awl2 mmg la down dapat india and rase best klu dapat country lain. tapi bile dh research psl india, rase nk sgt pg india. tapi sume yg terjadi ade hikmah.

hoping utk pergi australia sbb ayah lg suke klu aku pg sane. ayah tak kasi pg indonesia. die kate klu dapat indonesia baik kat malaysia jek. and czech terlampau jauh. so ayah, i'll try my best to make your dream come true :)

- i love you ayah!

rindu

2011-06-09T18:31:00.001+08:00

dh masuk kolej ni baru rase rindu kat life mrsm terendak. klu dulu aku la org no. 1 dalam dunia yg benci terendak tu. haha! tinggal kolej ni tak sebest mcm time kt mrsm dulu. sbb kolej aku bosan. tapi tak tahulah bdak2 kolej aku yg len. mane tahu die rase kat KTT tu heaven gila kan!

aku rindu..

sisters forever
kacau2 monyet kt block e
dating everyday
lepak time prep petang
copy hw and lab report org
ponteng prep and kelas
buka puase ramai2 kat teres
lari rmi2 balik blok utk pg lunch
maen time lab nyer exp
maen twister kat block e
minggu activity
gelak2 non stop

eh byk sgt ah nak list. tapi duduk kolej ni ajar aku how to be a grown up. dh kurang main. bukan kurang dh. rase mcm dh tak maen2 langsung. haha so skang sgt rinduuu :')

-move forward and try not to look back

never gonna happened

2011-05-28T04:36:00.002+08:00

I don't wanna hurt you cause I don't think it's a virtue
But you and I have come to our end
Believe me when I tell you that I never wanna see you again
And please can you stop calling cause it's getting really boring
And I've told you I don't want to be friends
Believe me when I tell you that I never wanna see you again

- :)

down

2011-05-25T05:22:00.000+08:00

OKAY AKU DOWN. AKU TAK NAK JUMPA SAPE2 PUN. TAKYAH CKP PSL REUNION, MTV, YOUTH, GIG SUME TU. GTH!

-BABI.

if you were in my shoes

2011-04-24T18:35:00.000+08:00

i was facebooking and then i got a notification.

"M commented on his Wall post."

M is a friend of mine. and yes, i like him a LOT! he told me he felt the same but naaah, whatever.

so i reply to his comment. after few seconds, he replied and after that he stopped.

so i waited for him to reply. i wait and then i wait and then i wait.

but at that time, lucky me i didn't look at the most recent because i was doing maths.

but then i can't wait anymore. it's too long.

so i look at the most recent.

oh now i know why he didn't replied to me.

he was busy talking to a girl.

and yes, pathetic me.

- eja, AS is just around the corner.

honesty

2011-04-24T04:25:00.002+08:00

finally, i did my maths homework. i'm soo happy. but the problem now is i can't sleep. grr! and i also don't have anything to write. so i'll stop here. eh wait, exam is just in 2 weeks time. do pray for me okay friends :)

- okay sorry.

AS

2011-04-23T02:10:00.000+08:00

AS is just in 2 weeks time. i'm not totally prepared for it. previous exam, i scored very low marks. i got 71% for physics, 75% for biology. i don't know about my chemistry and mathematics yet. but i'm very sure that i also got low marks for the two subjects. it's getting harder and harder just to get an A. like mr razib told me, AS is do or die. there's no second chance. i must stop doing stupid mistakes during the exam.

- score A for all sujects!

tired

2011-04-23T02:00:00.000+08:00

sometimes i hate myself for making my life complicated. i can make it simple but i just don't know why i felt comfortable by making it complex. but tonight, i had more than enough. yes i'm actually very very tired. or the truth is i'm exhausted. i'm letting go the past. this time i'm letting it all away. i'll not keep even a part or pieces of it. i might change my mind in a few hours after i wake up from my sleep. but i'm hoping that i won't.

- the 2nd time you're saying sorry for doing the same mistakes, it's actually not a mistake but you did it on purpose. i hate you :)

pre AS

2011-04-10T13:26:00.001+08:00

okay nak cite psl exam. overall, aku kecewa :(

practical chemistry: tak sempat langsung! byk sgt soalan tinggal.

practical biology: cepat gila siap tapi tak tahu betul ke tak haha

pure mathematics: aku tak study so aku redha jek la ape aku dapat.

physics: objektif susah! harap dapat score.

mechanics: soalan agak senang tapi aku tak study sgt. so aku tinggalkan 2 soalan yg mcm complicated.

chemistry: susah! careless mistakes.
practical physics: rase mcm okay bt entah la tak tahu cmne.

biology: plg susah! aku rase medic pun tak cmni. haha!

AS in one month time. sgt cuak! so aku tekad nak study non-stop. no one gonna stop me.

- bile la nak lpas cut off points?

i'm getting married!

2011-04-09T18:28:00.001+08:00

okay, tajuk saje nak bg gempak. actually nak cite tadi aku on skype and ade mamat sri lanka ajak aku kawen. so here is the conversation between me and him:

[6:21:50 PM] d****** w********: dr
[6:22:07 PM] Arifah Izzati: yes
[6:22:16 PM] d****** w********: i like u?
[6:22:24 PM] Arifah Izzati: oh okay
[6:22:26 PM] d****** w********: are like married me ?
[6:22:31 PM] Arifah Izzati: of course no
[6:22:39 PM] Arifah Izzati: i don't know you
[6:22:51 PM] d****** w********: do u have mobil number
[6:22:57 PM] Arifah Izzati: no
[6:23:01 PM] Arifah Izzati: only skype
[6:23:05 PM] d****** w********: y ?\
[6:23:21 PM] d****** w********: may i cme 2 malaysia
[6:23:33 PM] Arifah Izzati: just come if you want to

-senang jek nak cari suami rupenyer.

please..

2011-03-14T18:32:00.000+08:00

i enter a contest to win free ticket for maroon 5 concert.
please help me by liking this link:
http://www.facebook.com/marionexxes
and also this link:
http://www.facebook.com/marionexxes/posts/10150154265662146?notif_t=like
thanks a lot :)

-this will only takes you 1 minute.

pelik bila orang tak jawab soalan

2011-03-06T15:53:00.001+08:00

him: xtdow ag ke..

me: tak

hehe

nape?

him: ad org krm slm kt u..

td i lepak ijan..

me: sape?? 

- then he didn't reply for a day.

-the next day

him: hi

me: hi

him: bosan la u..

me: smalam sape yg kirim salam?

him: kwn ats kwn..

me: sape?

-then tak reply for few hours.

-after few hours

him: u?

me: you tak jawab soalan

- arggh susah sgt ke soalan aku?

berfikir

2011-03-06T14:46:00.000+08:00

aku rase kan, aku suke buat hidup aku complicated. and sekarang aku rase sangat buntu. cmne nak buat life aku ni simple ha? please, kalau ade sape yg boleh tolong aku simplekan hidup aku ni. tolong la comment kat bawah ni. ltak no. phone sume okay? nanti senang aku contact.

aku tahu yang cambridge exam aku ade lagi due bulan. tapi aku still tak nak blajar. main2 sume. and nak masuk festival seni la, festival sukan la. pastu keluar pg alamanda usha2 kedai nichii tu sampai harge hampir sume baju aku dh hafal.

aku tak tahu elaun 2 bulan aku dh masuk ke tak. geram gila! aku mane pernah check baki kat bank tu ade brape. before ni lagi la. tak reti nak gune mesin atm tu pun. haha! so nak pg bank tak terpegi2. eee prob la aku ni.

phone aku kan masuk longkang. lame dh tak gune phone. then td aku on la phone. aku expect mesti ramai yg send msg kat aku. haha sekali yg ade pun budak2 kolej aku. "eja, nak pinjam washing machine eh?" , "eja, ko ade buku longman physics tak?" , "eja, usrah kat surau tau pukul 6." .. sume msg2 yg menunjukkan aku sorang yang bosan. haha

apartment aku kan takde air. selalu sgt takde air. kadang2 time aku mandi tbe2 takde air. kena tadah air sume. then pegi class lambat. pastu nak basuh baju. masuk baju sume dalam washing machine then biar. tgok dh 2 jam tak siap2 membasuh. bila aku pergi tengok, rupenyer takde air. so amek la baldi pg tadah air.

exam nak dekat tapi syllabus tak abes. experiment mmg haram la nak abes. mmg takkan dapat habes la. confirm! pastu boleh pulak lagi nak cancel2 kelas. then dh la lecturer before ni ajar entah ape2. pastu lecturer baru ajar tanye, "eh asl kelas korang sume markah teruk jek?" cube la lecturer tu pikir sendiri, klu ade yg dapat score and ade yg tak dapat dlm kelas tu means yg tak dapat score tu mmg malas nak blajar. tapi klu dh sume tak dapat score, there's something wrong. and nak tahu ape yg wrong nyer? previous lecturer! and kalau la korang nak ckp aku ni menggelabah sgt. aku boleh jek nak study sendiri. you're totally wrong dude! klu aku ni genius sgt, aku tak amek a level. aku amek PHD trus okay?

aku tinggal kat apartment 4 orang. siyes aku confirm 4 org. tapi aku mcm pelik gak kadang2. rase mcm tinggal due org jek wei. haha! aku tak kesah la nak kemas rumah tu sorang2. siyes langsung tak kesah! tapi kalau bile aku kemas, ko la yg tolong kotorkan. please la ko jadi mcm binatang sbb ko langsung tak berperikemanusiaan okay? aku tak paham asl la susah sgt nak bersihkan sink tu. aku tak paham asl la susah sgt ko nak ltak span tu kat tempat die balik. aku tak paham asl la susah sgt ko nak lap makanan yang ko dh jatuhkan kat lantai tu. asal la susah sgt nak susun barang2 ko supaye tak bersepah. tak larat aku nak type kat sini. and in case, housemate aku bace. takyah la nak mengutuk aku sgt kan? sbb ko la yg salah haha! and please la at least jgn la jadi pengotor sgt.

dalam entry ni aku tahu aku byk marah2. aku tak tahu nak ngadu kat sape. so i wrote in my blog to make me feel better. sorry to all :)

-i need some miracle from ALLAH.

promote!

2011-03-05T21:49:00.000+08:00

i was reading junk online and suddenly i found an article telling that maroon 5 will perform live in Kuala Lumpur this april 2011. i was so excited! so i search for the event in facebook. guess what i found? i found a contest to win free tickets for that concert.

How to win the FREE tickets?*
1. Go to this website: http://www.facebook.com/marionexxes then like it.
2. Type your slogan on the wall 'I love Maroon 5 & Marionexxes because...' (not more than 5 words) then ask your friends to like the post.
3. The most like post will stand a chance for 30 FREE giveaway Maroon 5 Live in Kuala Lumpur 2011 tickets. (Announcement of the winners: 20th April 2011)
*Terms and conditions apply
- Open for Malaysian only.

actually, i'm posting this is to gain 'like' from all who read my blog. please help me by liking my post. you just need to do two simple things and it didn't take you more than a minute.

first, go to this website: http://www.facebook.com/marionexxes then like it.
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and you are DONE!

see it is simple as ABC :)

- please please..

listen to this boys

2011-02-27T16:42:00.001+08:00

boys ,

treat the girl you love as nice as you can . you can hurt them as much as you want . and they will just keep silent and try to be strong . they won't hurt you back because they love you a lot . but you don't know how long they can stand the way you treat them . because one day , when they had enough of your shit . they will leave you forever and nothing can make them stay .

- beware !

mencari

2011-02-27T16:16:00.000+08:00

i'm searching for a happy go lucky friend that willing to accompany me to every ...

concerts !

gigs !

malls !

i had one before . but he left me . so i'm searching for a new partner :) let's have fun together !

- please be my partner :DD

random

2011-02-27T13:20:00.000+08:00

hi readers :)

rase ramai dh tahu yg phone aku masuk longkang dlm toilet student lounge . tapi thanks to keberanian aku , aku amek balik phone tu . wek wek geli gilaaaaaa ! and skang aku agak sedih la . sbb aku sgt2 memerlukan phone . phone tu la alarm aku nak bgun tido , phone tu la jam aku . so sekarang dh takde phone , aku mcm agak lost la . haha plus bosan gak takde phone . tak boleh nak texting2 and calling2 dgn boyfren tersayang . okay itu tipu , aku takde boyfren . haha ! harap cepat2 la phone aku sembuh . get well soon , E75 :)

sekarang ni ade festival seni di KTT . aku masuk modern dance . mesti korang pikir aku tipu kan ? haha tapi tak . ini serius . dh la takde sape nak guide team modern dance kitaorang ni . create ah dance sendiri . then present kat lecturer rumah sukan . pastu kena reject ! aku agak marah gak ah sebenarnyer . dh la tak tolong . then suke2 ko jek nak reject . then create dance lagi . kali ni tak direject sbb mmg dh last minute . so hari rabu lepas dh perform modern dance . first event lagi tu . harap rumah kuning menang :D woohoo ! aku nak sijil jek actually . haha

disebabkan festival seni KTT yg menggila , aku dh lame gila tak study . and aku telah diinfect sleeping sickness . aku lambat 30 minutes pergi kelas sbb lambat bgun . and ade one day tu , aku ponteng jek terus sbb seriously aku tak larat bgun . then hari sabtu ade test bio . satu syllabus terus die test . aku dh la tak study . so nak dapat markah tinggi mmg harapan jek la . tapi harap dapat at least B . pre AS is just in one month time . grr cuak !

after festival seni KTT, ade festival sukan KTT lak . aku masuk netball , larian mesra and senamrobik . please ! aku nak sijil byk2 sepanjang aku kat KTT ni . tak nak ah jadi student passive . kalau korang ade tahu ape2 activity yg boleh mendapatkan sijil , let me know sbb i want to join !

- i wish a day is more than 24 hours !

tahu tak ?

2011-02-13T15:23:00.002+08:00

kat KTT kan , aku takde geng yg best mcm kat terendak

kat KTT kan , aku tak bercakap dgn lelaki langsung

kat KTT kan , aku punyer roomate tak best mcm kat terendak

kat KTT kan , subjek die sume susah tak mcm time spm dulu

kat KTT kan , aku dh tak lepak2 dgn kawan2

aduh , aku tak reti bersyukur . asyik nak compare2 jek . aku tahu yg Allah dh beri yg terbaik kat aku . cume aku tak nampak lagi . open your eyes wider eja ! everything is going to be okay once you are in india :)

- eja is super !

bayangkan

2011-02-13T15:08:00.000+08:00

bangun subuh . then solat . pastu tdo kejap and alarm bunyi baru bgun . then kemas katil . pastu kemas buku untuk kelas . pastu pergi mandi . then siap pg kelas . kat kelas blaja . then kelas habes , balik apartment . on the way ke apartment singgah mamak beli lunch . then sampai bilik tukar baju . pastu masak nasi . pergi toilet cuci muka . then nasi dh masak , makan lah lunch . abes makan basuh pinggan sume . then amek wuduk pg solat . pastu kemas buku untuk next class . siap pg kelas . kat kelas belajar . then kelas habes , balik apartment . on the way ke apartmen singgah mamak order dinner . then balik rumah tukar baju . amek wuduk , pg solat . then pg mandi . abes mandi siap2 nak pg amek dinner yg dh order td . then pg mamak amek dinner pastu balik apartment . makan dinner . amek wuduk then solat . sementara nak tunggu isyak masuk , bace alquran and iron baju . isyak masuk then solat . pastu study sampai pukul 12 . then tutup lampu , baring atas katil . pukul 2 or 3 nnt baru boleh tido . ini la yg aku buat everyday . bosaaaan kn ?

- just help me to spice up my day !

depression

2011-02-12T15:36:00.002+08:00

i promised to myself to be happy all the time but to be happy is really hard . so now i'm officially depressed ! i don't know how to get through this and i need help :(

i have thoughts of dying - i'm hoping that i'll die early . i'm getting tired to live my life everyday .

trouble sleeping - i can't sleep . eventhough i'm very very tired , i just can't shut my eyes . urggghh !

trouble breathing - i constantly have difficulties in breathing especially when i tried to sleep .

low concentration - i can't concentrate on my studies and i kept thinking about useless things .

loneliness - i felt lonely . i want to talk to someone but i don't know to whom i can talk to .

i have lots of negative thoughts - i can't stop thinking negatively what's wrong with me ?

lack of energy - i get very tired everyday . i'm just too tired for everything .

but i only felt this when i'm at KTT and if i'm at home , i'll be very very happy . why ? why ?

- can't wait for the festival . i just want to have some fun !

superheroes

2011-02-04T22:28:00.000+08:00

" I'm always tired because I become a superhero at night " is an organization of superhumanly powerful mutants and they have only one mission ; to serve as a combat team that could defend innocence humans against criminals and as well as other threats .

And so here is the members of the organization ....

SUPER SHAMY

REAL NAME : Shamellia
OCCUPATION : Student
IDENTITY : Publicly known
LEGAL STATUS : Malaysian
PLACE OF BIRTH : Paris
MARITAL STATUS : Unknown
STRENGTH LEVEL : Superhuman strength . Her skin and muscle is the strongest material .
WEAPONS : Lightning bolt . Force created equivalent to 100 tonnes of TNT .
TRANSPORTATION : -
SUPER POWER : Speed . She's faster than lightning .

SUPER ATIX

REAL NAME : Muhamad Atiq

OCCUPATION : Student

IDENTITY : Secret

LEGAL STATUS : No criminal record

PLACE OF BIRTH : Underwater

MARITAL STATUS : Single

STRENGTH LEVEL : Too strong and can't be destroyed .

WEAPONS : Fire

TRANSPORTATION : He can fly by reducing the pulls of gravity on him .

SUPER POWER : Highly resistant to physical injuries

SUPER AISAR

REAL NAME : Ahmad Aisar

OCCUPATION : Student

IDENTITY : Known to the police

LEGAL STATUS : Malaysian

PLACE OF BIRTH : Unrevealed

MARITAL STATUS : In a relationship

STRENGTH LEVEL : He's capable of becoming anything he can conceive of and managed to make himself dense enough and elastic enough to envelope , absorb and survive a hyper beam .

WEAPONS : Radioactive waves

TRANSPORTATION : Flying surfboard

SUPER POWER : He's capable of independent flight and a fast healer .

SUPER EJA

REAL NAME : Arifah Izzati

OCCUPATION : Student

IDENTITY : Publicly known

LEGAL STATUS : No known criminal records

PLACE OF BIRTH : Kuala Lumpur

MARITAL STATUS : Divorced

STRENGTH LEVEL : Infinity

WEAPONS : Venom that can kill in just a second

TRANSPORTATION : Teleport

SUPER POWER : Possesses telekinetic abilities enabling her to levitate and manipulate time , space , matter and energy for virtually any purposes.

so if you guys need help , we'll always be there to help :DD

- want to know more ? just ask :)

seremban

2011-02-01T17:09:00.001+08:00

aku selalu nak ade ramai kawan rapat kat seremban . nnt nak keluar dorang boleh teman . klu nak pg kl takdelah sorang2 duduk dlm train . tapi sayangnyer sbb aku tak ramai kawan kat seremban . even tinggal seremban tapi aku nyer mase byk habis kat negeri laen . tapi syukur jugak sbb ade kawan kat serata malaysia .

and akhirnyer , my wish come true ! sue dapat matrics kuala pilah , ami dapat kolej pembantu perubatan seremban . yeaaaaa ade 2 org kawan . lpas tu kitaorang plan nak kluar . aku sgt la excited sbb akhirnyer wish aku nak ade kawan rapat kt seremban termakbul . time kluar tu ami bawak kwn die yg len ; clutch , adri , acik . clutch aku dh lame kenal . adri and acik tak pnah knal but baru first time jumpe dh mcm rapat . after that kitaorang selalu gak kuar same2 . and sue slalu sleepover kat rumah aku .kitaorang selalu gossip2 sampai pagi . it was extremely fun :D

but skarang aku dh rase sedih sikit sbb matrics nk dkat abes dh . takut sue dapat jauh2 . nnt kurang sorang kawan aku kat seremban . bile acik , adri or ami ajak aku kuar , aku selalu suruh dorang bawak satu kolej dorang sbb nak knal ramai2 , nnt ramai la kwn aku kat seremban . haha tamak kan ? tapi dorang mst perli aku . haih .

so kat sini aku nak ckp thanks kat korang sbb sudi jadi kawan aku ! even aku ni selalu mintak belanja , selalu dtg lambat , tak nak bawak kereta klu hujan and mcm2 lagi benda yg korang tak puas hati dgn aku . tapi aku ikhlas kawan dgn korang :)

sue

ami

acik

adri

clutch

- aku tak sombong okay ?

game :D

2011-01-31T16:42:00.000+08:00

i got this game from syasya's blog . she's my schoolmate kt terendak dulu .

this game got something to do with personality and psychology test . all you need is a paper and a pen . okay let's start !

1. choose 3 animals . write them in the order 1, 2 and 3 .
2. then write down 3 reasons why you chose this animal .
eg : cat : cute , baik , active .

okay , you guys done with it ? now i'm telling about what's behind all this .

the first animal is what you want to become .
the second animal is what people see in you .
the third one is what you really are .

i don't really percaye dgn this game sbb mine mcm tak btol jek . hehe here's mine :

1. clown fish : cute , looks really happy , active .
this is almost true . i want to be someone who is very very happy and hyperactive .

2. horse : strong , fast , beautiful
waaa is this really what people see in me ? tibe2 rase mcm bangge . haha !

3. tiger : hot , aggressive , brave
this is not true . i don't think i'm hot , aggressive and brave .

readers , please give it a try . and share the result with me by commenting this post . okay ?

- happy :)

exam grr

2011-01-29T17:20:00.000+08:00

i was so stress about my exam . this time i spend lots of time to study . but still i got problem in answering the questions . i almost give up you know . i don't know why A-level is soo damn hard . i need to stay strong for just one year and three months and i'm off to india . i'll be back 6 years later and officially become a doctor . haha !

this is what i can conclude about my mid semester examination :

biology : i can answer all the questions but i don't have time to recheck . hoping that i don't do any careless mistakes .

physics : the questions is quite tough . some of the questions i answered with my own creativity . haha !

chemistry : quite easy . i got lots of free time as i use only 30 minutes to answer all the questions . but i still got problem . i don't learn about the reaction of Fluorine and even the textbook didn't say anything . so i lost marks there and one question is just soo mengarut . i think i had lost almost 20 marks . haha

mathematics : i didn't study and i didn't do much exercises . so i think i'll get low marks for this .

haha this is funny !

- please , i want at least 3A's .

maybe i was lonely

2011-01-29T16:35:00.001+08:00

last week was my mid semester examination . i decided not to go home on that weekend . and seriously i miss seremban so much at that time . i was very very homesick . i don' talk much . i fake a smile . i had a few sleepless night . haha i just hate KTT so much . when i spend my weekend there , i felt like dying . i don't know why . i'm always hoping that i got a boyfriend at KTT where i can share anything . a boyfriend that'll always make me laugh without even trying . a boyfriend who can spend lots of time with me . but i don't think anyone can fit into that position like he did before . or maybe i should ask for a bestfriend . but i don't find anyone yet that understand me like dalila , nik , dinie , tiqa , lily , shamy , piqa , sue , myra . what's wrong with me ? i just keep looking back while everyone is moving on with their life . so to anyone who reads this post , please pray that one day i'll find someone that can accompanied me through thick and thin at KTT and also my six years at india :)

- oh i'm not strong enough .

heyyyyyyy

2011-01-29T16:15:00.000+08:00

hello readers :) i'm back blogging ! it's been 2 weeks i didn't post anything . i just don't have the urge to write . hmm maybe i got lots to write but it's too private and i think i just should kept it in my heart so that only me knows it . i always read all updates from the blogs that i followed . maybe i don't comment on it but seriously i read them . but from now on , i'll be a good blogger .

- i miss her blog :'(

brain

2011-01-15T02:38:00.001+08:00

i can't sleep ! so bace la all blog updates . then tbe2 teringin nak buat analysis brain mcm atix buat . and what i got is :

Your Brain Usage Profile:
Auditory : 62%
Visual : 37%
Left : 72%
Right : 27%

baru aku tahu yg otak aku tak stable . padan la bile blajar lebih sikit jek rase sakit otak . haha ! so now is the time to stablekan my brain usage :)

- come and join me !

old and new me

2011-01-09T16:45:00.000+08:00

when i asked people , what they like most about me ? most of them will answer , your coolness , happy go lucky , very friendly . but when i think about it , i'm not like that now . i kept worrying things , my mood swings and i don't try to befriend with strangers . ktt change me a lot ! i hate you ktt . i want the old me .

so from now on , i'll change . i'll be cool in any situation like i used to . i don't want to waste my time by worrying useless things . i don't care if i have to sweep and mop the apartment on my own . i don't care if i have to clean the toilet all by myself . i don't care if i can't go home during weekend because i have replacement class . i don't care what people said about me , they're just jealous .

i want to be happy eventhough i'm having a bad time . even my hand hurts and bleeding because i try to fix the washing machine . even when she did annoying things . even when i get low marks in exam . even when i get very tired because of my busy schedule . even when he said that he doesn't need me anymore .

i want to be friendly . i'll stop being silent in my class . i'll talk to everyone like i had knew them for a long time . i'll say hi when we accidentally meet each other at he mall , etc . i'll help them when they're in problem , i'll stop thinking negatively about them . i'll make them important .

when i'm typing this , i know that i'll change . fuck to those who kept badmouthing me . i hate you !

- hello, i'm the 2011 eja :)

apartment :)

2011-01-07T23:09:00.001+08:00

i'm so bored . tak tahu nak buat ape lg selain blogging . so rase mcm nak update blog ttg apartment yg baru aku pindah ni .

this is my study table ! but tak pnah study pun . just letak buku and stationaries jek kat sini . meja ni sgt la buruk . aku benci meja ni sebenarnyer . tapi gune jek sbb this is the only table yg ade . dh la laci satu takde . aku buang sbb dh buruk sgt . haha !

this is my own space! kat sini tempat makan , study and termenung . most of mase aku abes duduk kat sini la . haha bosan .

ni tempat aku gantung baju2 yg sudah iron . sejak duduk apartment ni , aku sgt2 la bosan and tak tahu nak buat ape utk isi mase . so aku iron baju utk seminggu nyer kelas . klu bosan lagi , iron untuk due minggu . haha ! rajin kan i ?

ni dalam locker ! tempat aku gantung baju yg belum tak iron lagi .

ni bahagian bawah locker . ape ? bersepah ? tak kesah ! aku penat lipat lawa2 . then nnt mesti bersepah balik . so aku biar jek ah cmni .

this is my bed ! aku tak suke katil ni and tilam ni . katil ni dh la berbunyi2 . gerak sikit bunyi . haih . tilam ni pulak dh melengkung . sakit badan tdo . tapi tak boleh la nak demand sgt kan . skali kat india nnt aku tdo atas tikar jek . haha bersyukur la ape ade .

lastly ,

a picture of me ! saje upload sbb dh lame tak upload pic sendiri :)

- i need some fun !

how to forget someone you love ?

2011-01-07T19:16:00.000+08:00

different people do have different answers . here is some of the answers :

just don think about that person, just think about sumthing more important mcm tgk tv ke..haha
bz kan diri. :D
Penohkan setiap masa dgn bende, tak kire ape, stiap saat kene penohkan.. by then, takkan teringat sesiape pon :P
keep urself busy my dear. its hard, but uve to try
why forget, if u love...kejar dia syg...:) hahaha
just b urself,,buat bnd yg ko suke n lupekan psal dye
find someone else to love:p
find new love, i think.
sumpa susa. its impossible kott.
it's impossible, just pray the best for him/her is the best solution so that he/she might turns out to be someone different in your life, maybe 'dia' boleh jadi rapat with you in another type of relationship..Allah will guide you =)
still can't find the way yet :(
you dont. and never will if you truly love him/her. if u do, then it means that you never even love him/her from the beginning.

for me , the best solution is by keeping yourself busy . work yourself until you get very tired at night and then go to sleep . do the same for the following day . insyallah you'll forget the one you love :)

- it's so hard to pretend you love someone when you're not .

stronger

2011-01-02T16:51:00.000+08:00

"wei cmne ni ? aku sedih ."

just chill eja . this is so not you . just enjoy your life :D

- living my life to the fullest :)

i've been waiting for you 2

2011-01-01T13:55:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR !

HAPPY 1st ANNIVERSARY to my dear blog :)

on 2010 , i plan to celebrate my 2011 with my friends . but the plan have to be cancelled . hoping i can celebrate my 2012 with my friends because on 2013 until 2019 i'll be spending my life at india .

so , my resolutions is to a new eja , a happier eja , a cleverer eja , a prettier eja . haha i want to be a very kind , hardworking type of person . i want an awesome 2011 !

- 2011 , please be good to me .

a game

2010-12-31T22:47:00.002+08:00

right now , people kept updating status about this :

Inbox me any number between 1 and 5000 - I'll make the number as a code to write a thing that I like about you in my status. The fun thing is, only you and me know what your number is =)

i like people to describe me . so whenever i see this status , i'll definitely send a number to their inbox . and this is what i got from them :

dari dulu knal smpai skrg ska sgt nmbor 16 kan? :) u have an outgoing personality n senang je kalu nak berkawan. but aku rasa pelik skit sbb ko ni hot tp ska carik pakwe pelik2. x caye? nk aku list down name ex2 ko? XD
Damn! Cant be describe by simplest of words.. Awesome that comes beyond praise actually :D DAMN, sangat lah pandai, in same time MALAS, in same time, Diam and also talkative.. ntah.. susah gile nak cakap mcm mane, tapi thats the best part.. You're special :D Glad to get know you. :] Lupe nak cakap.. the first time i met you, "She is so not gonna talk to me". tapi tang2 datang laser tak pasal2 kat aku.
even pernah belajar dekat cambrigde dulu, masih tak fasih nak speaking :P mula kenal anda masa mula belajar di sana. quiet tall. very thin :D sangat pandai pulak tu sampai managed dapat straight A's (SPM). congrats :) paling tak pernah lupa tentang anda masa kita main game guess haiwan apa. ingat tak? awak bagi clue, saya teka ;D nice knowing u :) kita sama2 berjaya stand on our own feet. without bf. hee ♥
kau nie sentiasa cool je tiap kali ada masalah . orang laen duk sibuk kalut dia boleh bwat muka relax je . haishh ! tapi sekali kau da tension abes hilang mood kau . sesungguhnya kau mmg antara org yg aku syg . n i really miss every single things yang ada kat kau . ♥♥ ;)
blur.super smart.great friend to be talking with.hilarious.chaotic.love to sleep uncontrollably. Happy New Year~ :)
sgt kagum dgn cara awk yang sgt2 cool.baik.cantik.peramah dan mudah bergaul dengan orang lain.
ure incredibly awesome ! happy go lucky type (: suka sangat aaand penah terasa nak pinjam otak kau.hihi sebab cara kau study relax je. and sekarang kau cantik ! sukaaa d way u look, u dressed up n ur style (:
Super. Seriously super. The best fact about you is you never lied to yourself. You are clever in your own way. and we share many common things. You are stong, stronger than I can imagined. You survived many things ; just like our fathers :)
1600, sangat col!!! masa kat tdk dulu.
x bape rapat la mase kt tdk dulu.
tapi yg tau memang baik la kan, down to earth and x memilih kawan. lanyak je sume org(btul ke eh?)
memang x sombong lgsung, tu yg sure. =)

- thanks friends !

2010

2010-12-31T13:33:00.000+08:00

okay , what happened on 2010 ?

1. the first time i'm blogging .

2. being single after almost 3 years we had been together .

3. get my car licence with one test only and i'm proud of myself .

4. went to cambridge english class and met some of my primary school friends there .

5. got the chance to touch Martin's hand ( vocalist of boys like girls) during their concert at mont kiara .

6. went to genting highlands with some of my batch and it was awesome .

7. have fun at sunway lagoon with my girlfriends and it really worth it .

8. had a surgery to remove my teeth and it was a misery .

9. went to youth festival for the first time and enjoying my day .

10. really disappointed with my SPM result .

11. got mara's scholarship to india . alhamdulillah :)

12. had a very hard time at KTT .

13. try 'shisha'ing for the first time and the next day my body temperature increases until 40 degree of celcius .

14. went to mtv worldstage and spending a lot of money for the pass .

15. my grandmother died because of heart attack .

i think that's all . i'll add i there's anything that i forgot to put in the list .

- arghhh i kept forgetting :(

cleanliness

2010-12-25T22:09:00.000+08:00

aku tak paham asl ade orang boleh tinggal kat tempat yang kotor , boleh guna toilet yg kotor and takde usaha untuk bersihkan ? bile orang buat mcm ni , orang bleh bygkan diri someone tu cmne . klu tak reti jaga kebersihan kat rumah sendiri , ape lagi dgn diri sendiri kan ? at least bersihkan la tempat tinggal tu once a week . tu plg least yg boleh buat . tak rase geli ke tinggal tempat kotor ? kdg2 klu nak buang air kecil and besar sgt2 pun tak jd klu tgok toilet kotor . please la sedar diri . bukan nyer kecik lagi sampai tak reti bersihkan rumah and toilet sendiri . bukan nyer cacat pun sampai tak mampu kan . haih susah la . takkan la nak tunggu kena penyakit baru nak bersihkan toilet , sapu rumah , mop lantai , bersihkan habuk sume kan . tu dh terlambat . haih . ya Allah , tolong tabahkan hatiku untuk menempuah dugaan ini . amin ..

- siape yg makan cili , terasa la pedasnyer .

friend requests

2010-12-19T19:28:00.001+08:00

lately , i got so many friend requests at facebook . a day i will get 10++ friend requests . if you are one of my silent readers and you added me on the facebook , just leave a message telling that you added me because you've been reading my blog . is it okay ? thanks :)

- haha mst ade org bace post ni then ckp , "ko takyah bajet popular la eja ! ." like i care la kan . sukehati la , blog aku .wek ! :P

hey readers :)

2010-12-19T19:19:00.000+08:00

i dh buat tumblr . here's the link.

-tumblr is really fun actually but still tak paham sgt .

takut laaaaa

2010-12-14T02:26:00.000+08:00

takut bila orang yang aku sayang , pergi tinggalkan aku .

tak dapat terima kenyataan .

seboleh nyer nak yakinkan diri yg sume tu tak betul .

nak berlagak mcm takde benda berlaku .

hmmm grow up la eja .

- sedekahkan alfatihah kepada org2 yg korang sayang yg telah meninggalkan korang . al-fatihah ..

i've been thinking

2010-12-12T15:22:00.000+08:00

yesterday i met atix . we went to bukit bintang and jalan imbi . it was very crowded but sure happening . suddenly i realised that i don't have much time to enjoy . at that time , i wish i can stay longer and do some shopping and hang out till late at night . but i can't because sunday i had to go back to college . holiday had come to an end .

AS is just 5 months way . i need to study . i don't have time to enjoy . i need to get an excellent result and score 90++ for every subjects . i do want to fly .i don't want to waste 2 years doing a-level and at last i failed and i can't fly . i don't want that to happen . so i have no choice but to study really hard . after AS , i will learn A2 topics . the senior and lecturer told me that A2 is way harder than AS . so i need to be very hardworking and study study study . i want to get 20 points so that i can fly without having any problems . then i'll fly to india doing medic . i can't go back to malaysia every week . i will be spending my 6 years there at india .

because of this , it makes me think , " will i become a doctor ?" , "will i enjoy my life ?" . huh .

- i'm in dilemma .

F*** mak cik facial

2010-12-09T20:50:00.001+08:00

semalam pergi satu kedai ni , nak buat facial . aku buat appoinment pukul 12 . sampai2 jek tak dilayan . tunggu la dalam 15 minit baru die layan . tak tepati mase btol ! die buat facial ganas gila ah ! die pikir mcm buat kat patung ke . aku tahan jek . dh la asyik delay2 and die pg borak2 plak . facial jek sampai 2 jam 30 minit . abes jek facial , aku tgok muke aku mcm kena chicken pox . merah2 . tapi buat relax jek ah . sbb mak cik tu buat muke relax jek , so aku pikir mmg cmni kot jadi klu lpas facial . balik rumah nak ambil wuduk , muka sakit2 . aku pun pg ke cermin dan tgok dgn teliti . rupenyer muke aku luka2 ! luka tahu tak ? fuck punyer mak cik . aku tension gila sampai skang kot . bodooooooooo punye orang !

- aku makin hodoh :''''''(

awal muharam

2010-12-06T15:24:00.000+08:00

ade beberapa azam aku nak buat . and aku nak pastikan it will come true !

1. breakfast everyday

2 . study 3 hours a day .

3 . concentrate in class .

4 . be happy all the time .

5 . teach him a lesson .

pray for me guys :)

- new eja please .

i'm searching for a guy

2010-12-04T15:07:00.000+08:00

1 . he is very smart . he only wears tuxedo or shirt and tie when he goes out .

2 . he is tall and he got very nice abs .

3 . he is a sport person .

4 . he got a cool car .

5 . he has lots of money .

6 . he makes me happy

7 . he only love me until he die .

so , if you found him , let me know :)

- yeah , i'm bored .

hot la sgt ko kan ?

2010-12-03T20:06:00.002+08:00

him : nak ikut x g the ship?

me : kat mane ?

him : pnag g the ship x?

me : kt mane ?

him : kl la.

me : kl besar

him : thr ship pun x taw

me : kat mane ?

him : zouk tau x kat mne?

me : tu kat jalan ampang
the ship jalan imbi ?

him : cam sampah ar..
benda menarik pun tak tahu

- this is copy and paste . menyesal aku chat dgn ko , sampah .

11 months

2010-12-03T15:08:00.000+08:00

dh 11 months single ! wow mcm tak percaye jek . looking forward to be single for 2 years .

- excited ! hehe

strangers

2010-12-01T14:38:00.000+08:00

"Ni p'cik guna kad orng, tolng isikan P'cik top up RM30 di number baru P'cik ni nom dia 0178941279,pasal P'cik ade kes di balai polis, Boleh tak cpat sikit beli."

this is the message i got on first of december , 13:17 , from +6285216073912 . i replied this message , and said i don't trust you . i waited for the reply but no he didn't reply . then i send new message to the pakcik's new number and ask him who are you . he didn't reply also .

seriously , i hate it when strangers lied to me when all i want to do is to help them . i've been in this kind of situation lots of time . some of them were :

i was walking to mid valley from the ktm station . then a guy stopped me and asked me to fill a form . he told me that he's asking for people to support his course project . all i need is to fill the form . so i filled the form and then he asked me how much that i want to pay him ? RM20 , RM30 or RM40 ? i said that i don't want to pay him anything since he said that all i have to do is just fill the form . he didn't tell me that i have to pay . then he begged me and followed me around . so i went to the atm machine and withdraw some money . i gave him RM20 and he gave me a chopstick . i was so frustrated at that time . i want to help him by supporting his course project but at last AKU DIPERBODOHKAN .
i was eating at mcD on the first day of hari raya . then a pak cik came to me and asking me to give him some money . so i gave him RM2 if i'm not mistaken . then the next week , i saw him at ktm station and he was smoking . i was damn furious at that time . he used the money that he begged from people to buy ciggarettes ? he should die , seriously. and for the second time , AKU DIPERBODOHKAN .

from now on , i don't want to be nice to strangers .

- bertaubatlah selagi ada masa :)

to be a better me

2010-11-30T18:00:00.000+08:00

the first day i entered KTT , my first thought was , "omg i'm going to die in this fucking boring place." and yeah , i 'm dying there . but after a few months , i realised a lot of things and a voice told me, "hey eja , you have to be strong . you can't die yet . there are a lot of things you need to learn besides chemistry , physics , mathematics and biology here ." so i stay there and yeah i learnt lots of things .

some of them are :

aku tahu macam mane nak belajar sendiri . lecturers kept cancelling the class and i have to study all by myself . i'm hoping that i'll get a good result .
aku tahu byk cerita psl sejarah islam . i learnt this from usrah . i admit that i'm very lazy to attend the usrah. but day after day , i kind of enjoying the usrah as i got new stories , new infos .
aku jadi makin baik . i was influenced by all my friends there .
aku belajar menghargai . this is because i met lots of less fortunate people here and this makes me realised that i had more than enough .

and sometimes i'm proud to be a KTTian eventhough KTT is damn boring .

- top in the world !

moving out

2010-11-28T23:06:00.001+08:00

26 november ,

exam abes .
holiday start !
pindah apartment .

all my stuffs that needed to be moved . yg ni okay lagi nak angkat sbb dh biase kat terendak , pindah2 ni . yg dasyat nyer , rumah dgn apartment jauh gila and i have to angkat ulang alik dr rumah ke apartment . gila penat !

pathway dr rumah ke apartment .

keluar rumah .

then jalan terus and belok kiri .

after belok tu , jalan straight sampai simpang tiga hujung jalan tu baru belok kanan .

then jalan straight sampai hujung tu , belok kiri .

bile dh belok kiri , nampak pagar tu . masuk pagar tu .

lpas masuk pagar , ade court futsal . jalan jek straight sampai court badminton .

dh sampai court badminton ni , jalan sampai ke bangunan putih , oren kuning tu .

then naik tangge .

naik lagi tangge .

and naik lagi .

sampai la ke apartment aku .

jauh gilaaaaa kan ? korang dapat bayangkan tak betapa kuat nyer aku ulang alik angkat sume brg aku kat atas tu ? and thanks to aeisyah sbb die ade tolong aku satu trip . kalau tak , mati kot aku tgh jalan . and result nyer , badan aku sakit2 skang ni . penat die tak hilang2 . harap lpas ni takde pindah2 lagi .

- boleh tak jangan nak merungut jek ? haha

yeahh done !

2010-11-27T19:14:00.000+08:00

i've done signing up for formspring . here is the link . feel free to ask me anything :)

- i've reactivated my facebook account .

formspring

2010-11-27T02:09:00.000+08:00

i'm thinking of creating a formspring account . i'm getting bored with facebook . i'll give the link when i'm done signing up the formspring account . and people , do ask me .

- just ask anything :)